What I had learned so far...

I had went through bad memories for some time, and i get used with it and lived facing it. Without these memories I might not found my own true shape, as I get through it I learned from it, take it as a mistake that I'll never repeat(somehow I love it when it repeated), gain something from it while giving away some. Want to learn some small thing that I had learned?
These are some of it:

1. Be nice to others no matter who they are and not too much and don't let them to take an advantage over your kindness(we are no saint/angel/yada2) They also have to learn the limit because they are no saint(again).

2. Respectful to others and to yourself(don't be a clown)

3. Don't leave yourself be the person who only understand about others and never being understood by others(friendship is like a two way highway)

4. There are those who depends on/friendly with you because of something you have, not who you are.

5. Don't easily sympathize on others fate/difficulties, they might try to fool you.(Think rationally)

6. There are always a second chance, forgive your friend. If God didn't give me a second(or couple of) chance I might had been in HELL typing this blog for you to read.

7. Don't afraid to face reality/problems, always be brave and initiative in your career. Donald Trump was a brave person but now he is a coward, why? He is brave because of his wealth and fame. Take that away and then he is good as he is. (sorry dude) Never afraid to let go..

8. Never afraid of losing something valuable otherwise your life wouldn't be worth of living.

9.Kill your friend if they forgot when is your birthday, kill your brother if he try to bully you, kill your sister if she slept with your friend, kill your father if he leave you for another woman, kill your mother if she lost you in Tesco supermarket, kill all of them if you feel your life worth a living, kill yourself if you don't have self respect and self esteem......

Don't fall for that, It's a JOKE hahaha......

There are lots of thing you can learn through friendship, it flows like a river never let it spoiled like a polluted river or blocked by a big dam of differences. When I thought about it back then, it's us who let all of this happen, whether we let it happen or we fight it back, we ourself our own worst enemy from the beginning. Adios till next time! Keep on fighting!!

Journey to Belaga

Well, frankly I've never been to Belaga even once and now I got my chance. Hey Danny!(gua dah jalan2 kat tempat lu la) Albert and I were delivering a set of computer for the SMK Belaga in the next day. Somehow the next morning I felt a little bit lazy to get myself up(of course it's 6 a.m.) and after I had prepared everything and waiting for my friend to pick me up I, felt something weird but I don't know what is it.."Well I had to move then" I think to myself. After arrived at the Belaga Wharf we look for "kuli bataks" to carry the computer to the wharf. The wharf was packed with people because the other wharf(Sibu) was used for TYT's ship so all the express boat grouped here. (There was Maal Hijrah events at Kapit so the TYT, CM also there)
At 9.30 a.m. the boat departed from Kapit to Belaga. It was a long journey though, I spent much of my time watching the Jean Claude van Damne movie collection(pirated lo). There are lot of small rocky Island along the river, we're lucky that the boat driver is an experience person because the water level was quite low and it's dangerous to go upriver against the stream. The journey would take around 4 hours to arrive and I was quite boring at that time and we just talk everything that pass through our mind event about "inverma" and those kiddy things.. The boat had many stop at the villages along the river and finally we arrived at Belaga by the time 2.30 p.m.
The only thing we do in the first place was looking for a hotel to stay. Well, plan A not good enough, the computer weight is killing me( can you imagine I have to carry it along the way to the hotel from the wharf). Plan B? Well it just a coincidence we saw someone from Kapit and asked for their help to send the computer to the school and it works. After arrived there, we meet the principle and assemble the computer. and when everything done we go back to the town to look for hotel. We walk along the way and found a place to stay and it's quite cheap! RM28 for a night that sound great. The hotel worker then show us the room. The first room was located at the end and to my surprise.... when I opened the door... everything was mess. Even there was a leftover(don't know how long it left there), then we change for another room. The second room was quite good, neat and confortable except for one thing.. Is the air conditioner working? Ooopss I did it again! Then once again we change our room and the third one is..OK. That's all hehe..
After putting everything in place, we rest on the bed( not in one bed) and taking shower, we planned to take picture at the town. O..o..o..No! The rain started pouring heavily..endlessly...till night comes. Then we came out to have dinner at the shop nearby and have a look around the town. It was sooooooo..... quite.. nothing much so we head back to the hotel..
We talk all the nights long, stupid thing, craps, tot tot tot..and then I realize something. I brought along 4 shirts and 2 shorts. Well the whole night I slept only with my spender and my singlet. My mom must had put, and taken out my other stuffs without telling me.
The next morning I take a pic along the wharf just something for me to keep and we departed at 7.30 a.m. and..another job done( don't know what to do after this)

Keep on fighting...

Actually there are lots of thing I wish to do before leaping to another life... Work to Live... I guess at at that time I never thought it had happened to me. After almost a year working at peninsular I made a a major decisions in my life... Resign from my post as the Production Manager and left before the CNY. The bosses were surprised and try to persuade me from resigning. Well, I never regret the decision made. I know it's 'gonna' be a new journey for me and 'freedom'. Yeah why not... I waste all my time working for them without having "something" to gain. They failed to set my EPF account for 4 months until I do it by myself in a day without problem. The working environment is ok but THEY depends to much on foreign workers which is a disease lurking inside the rusted company. Believe me when they depend to much on this 'people' they can "step on your head", what a sad love relationship between the company and the 'people'. Frankly I'm not a quitter... I don't want to wait and see it spreads like a cancer. The company is great, thanks for giving me the chance to contribute and improve myself to be a better person but their policies is killing them and I have to move on.
After I resign I try to look for other employment at other places, I have some saving and it's enough for couple of months. Before that I had to move all my belonging and move to Seri Kembangan. There are lots of opportunities for me beside I have friends there.... right? No!! No!! No!! Plan A failed. Nobody.. I mean nobody try to help me to move with them. Come on it's not like I don't have money for the rent... Well there goes my plan, ruined in the first week... actually I don't want to bother my other friends also. (They also offer their helps) My parents persuade me to return home to Sarawak and look for better job. I thought 'why not it's my home' right. Nope... 4 month after searching for employment at several industrial company none of them interested.. don't know why... maybe my resume is not that attracting or maybe they're looking for other qualification.

In June 2006 I got an interview at Sibu and got the job at my hometown but at the rural area. I only work there for a month only as Library Assistant Officer. It was offered a 6 months contract and it's not permanent. Before the interview it say that it was a 1 year contract. No traveling allowance, the the library electric sockets were all burnt out due to short-circuit and not repaired for months and nobody noticed it to the HQ. Such thing can worsen the library even more and I don't want to point finger on some person. Well, once again I resign from the post and unemployed. I do lot of jobs from my home. I sell vcd, my old computer components and many more just for a living. Then I got another job October 2006, working for AKAP service for two months as a clerk. Looks like MLM but without product to sell and it's RM33 only. After two months operating the business start to slow down and later not even one person join the program. There are rumours that it was a scam and many people avoid it and the founder silent without any news. Then 2007 comes and 2006 goes so quickly when I search for an answer. I realized that there are lot of thing I have done in 2006. I can wake up anytime I want without thinking about working. Kind of strange... I wake up so early when I'm not attached to anything. Don't know why maybe psychologically. I found that there are lot of opportunities to get money through the internet. Actually I'm doing business and it's still in the first stage growth right now and I see more chance for development in this field. I'm still seeking for job in case it didn't work as planned. Somehow i enjoyed my life here at Kapit, though I tried to run away from here to start a new life, new chapter, new story and chronicles of my life.

And.. no matter what happens, I'll keep on fighting because that is what I am...