Out of tune

Lately these few days I'm a bit mixed. It caused me to react out of 'tune' and drifting my life with the flow. Nothing much happens lately and my biological 'clock' is broken. It's hard for me to get a sleep or even to wake up early. Sometime I force myself closing my eyes to avoid it from drying. Can you ever imagine that you were not sleeping and your eyes were closed whole night till morning? Well you better wish that never happen to you.

Gosh, why would there be a reason for me to feel bad about others? I never have any intention to do such kind of things and people tend to perceive it other than my own. Why we're proud about all the so-call cowboy thing we do? Proud to be a prominent in such filed? Are you so meant? Or meant? Can you explain what mean really is? I never being proud of my past but I tell my tale as a guidance sop that others can learn from my tale, from my mistakes and everything...

Maturity is something that you get when you can rationalize based on your life experience. Age never determine it...whether you're the first to taste salt or the Starbucks Coffee it doesn't matter. There are those who act like a 9 years old boy begging for his mother's milk. Geez!!! Get a life...

If you can handle your life smoothly, that is better than bragging how (good)mature you are. Mere perspective deceives those who is blind in the heart. Respect them, then you can see through it.

These kind of things makes me out of tune, out of my normal self. I can change accordingly but they can't change me for their own sake. I change, I decide base on my surrounding. No favors to other.

Hopefully this month I can get myself back to normal. I still have faith on myself.